MaTtHeW SoO

He's everything I need...

2009-04-07T12:00:00.002+08:00

It's been more than a year that I have not write about my life... It has been a busy lifestyle for me that I keep myself away from all things like church and even my gf... I know that I have been committing to my family and my work... And left no time for the rest of the things which is very important to my life...

First of all, God is the one that I missed most... Going on with my life without Him, makes hell loads of different... Everything that I do, it will not be the best of me... It's not going according to what I plan... And worst of all, the blame is all on me even it is not entirely my fault... And today I'm full of shit which I need to clean up... Alot of the problems which I have foreseen, was told but was turn down... As now the problem hit them, they started to blame it on me... I am speechless... Seriously Speechless... All the shit that I have to go through... All the hard work and time that I have to forked out for... What is the purpose for it??? To get shit in return???

All these are no longer important to me... Whatever you want to say whatever you want to do... It will not affect me... I'm just doing what I can do to improve further on... Moreover, I know what I want most, what I need most... It's far beyond what I have now... The one that gives me life, the one that loves me most...

I must thank God for joanne, if not of joanne I would not experience God's presence in my life was so great that I can breakdown in tears in anywhere... The song everything writen by lifehouse and the sketch from some guys... It really touch me so greatly on how God really means to me in my life...

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose... you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

It's great to be back here again!!!

2008-07-22T09:47:00.002+08:00

It's been so long ago that I have actually come back in here and post something... Been busy with work as it's still a new company... Everything needed to be started from scratch again... Something that I don't really like... Working my ass off and seeing myself been through so much pressure... It's no fun, but at least something that I have learned through it... Though work is tough, but I manage to go through it with God's strength (of cause)... Without Him, I don't think I'm still here...

One more thing that I want to thank God for my education... Knowing that I'm going to like to studying Interior Design... I enjoyed the 1st class... And hopefully it will be fruitful too...

Don't really have much to write... But just want to let some people know that I do miss them from being away from them for so long... Will plan to make some time to meet up with you guys as well... God bless...

Nice week!!!

2008-03-12T17:10:00.002+08:00

Been lazing around for months... And actually most of my colleagues are all gone... They have left for better opportunity... As for me... I'm still waiting for one... Today, I kinda got offered and ready to move over there as soon as possible... And today I also saw college offering Interior Architecture (THE COURSE THAT I WANT) which is part time... I'm just speechless... I'm going to enquire as soon as possible... If not... I'll be late again which I don't want... In my weakness, God still be my strength and continue to be... He love me... That got me thinking... =) Bless you...

Here I goes again....

2008-02-19T11:49:00.003+08:00

Haha... It's been quite a while that I didn't blog... Been too lazy to type things and also think about things... But in some ways, I still need to reflect back again...

Been to a few places within this month... Been up and down... And also quite tired too... Let's start from PD trip on 1st February 2008... Some of us decided to go PD during this public holiday which includes Mario, Shannon, Jordan, Daniel & Dicky Lim, Jonathan, Benedict, Caroline & Carmen Leong, Paul, Simon Soh, Joanne and I... Hmmm... 13 of us... When we meet up in church, all are present... But one slowest MAN in earth was late that day and all of us have to wait 45 minutes for HIM and HE is JONATHAN... *sign*... Lucky we were patience enough to wait for him, if not he'll reach church and sees nobody there waiting for him... The worst thing is that when he reach, he just pretend that it didn't happen... Not even an apology... But we were all forgiving people of God... So there we head to PD from church... It's about 1 and a half hour to reach to PD, but we headed to a shopping market to buy some food before heading to the beach... So after that, most of them head to the beach while Paul, Simon and I headed to the town to buy KFC and later to buy fishing net as well... So then, we are all at the beach, start fire and begin to makan as well... It was a quiet night... And we had a lot of fun too... We went to the sea to catch some crabs and with the fishing net, it helps alot too... Much much more easier to catch too... As we walk along the sea, it's kinda calm and still... We caught alot of crabs and hermit crabs too... I did spotted squids and fishes too, but they were too fast to react... So they managed to get away... But then I spotted this stingray, at first I thought to myself... Why is there some patch there with a long stick stucked along with it... But again when I look at it again, I thought to myself again... It got eyes too... And quickly I told mario, there's a stingray... And mario ran over here and try to catch it, but the first attempt was failed and the stingray swam away without anyone spotted it anywhere else... And we thought of giving up, so we walk again... And again, I spotted that little fella again and this time mario got it... And we put it in the pail with all the crabs too... And this is the most amazing catch that we have caught so far... It's always been crabs, hermit crabs, prawns, fishes and almost caught squid... But never ever a stingray, and this surely is one most amazing catch ever... After a long time looking at it, we decide to put it back to the sea... But it's almost dead, not able to move so much... And we left it there and we move back to the shore... We sat around the BBQ pit, and most of us have left to go back home... Which only left Mario, Shannon, Jordan, Joanne and myself... And I did something very cruel, I burn the crab alive with the BBQ pit... We saw it suffering and after that, no more sound from it but fragrance of cooked crab... After chatting and laugh together, we packed and left the place... And we go home after that... It's one wonderful night too... And thank God for safe journey too...

After a few days... On monday, Joanne and I went to work and after work we went to AIA to talk to brian about the camp T-Shirt... Joanne also begin to talk about her boredom in Ipoh which she's going to suffer starting from tuesday onwards... So mario borrowed her the laptop and ask her and I to go over to his place to get some DVDs too... We all went there and chit chat too, and we too had some drink and went back after that... The next day, I went over to Joanne's place and had breakfast with her... And she told me that she's not leaving in the morning and have to wait till the her brother to come back from work which is that night... So we drive out... After a long drive, we decided to just go over to connaught to had PAN MEE but it was not opened and we went to some shops below the PAN MEE shop... We had breakfast there and the food sucks... And we left the place after trying our best to consume the food... So I send Joanne back home and promised her to bring her out for dinner later that night after we rested first as we slept at about 4a.m. that morning... So I went back and took a rest... Then I woke up and bath... And dad ask me to deliver dinner to my mom... And slowly I felt very uneasy, uncomfortable and unpleasant in my stomach... Then I didn't really care much and drive out to deliver the food... As I drive, I felt even more sick... And this time I'm getting dizzy and feel like vomitting and shitting as well... So I reached AIA, took the food up and headed to the washroom... After 2 times of vomitting and a few times of shitting... I finally give up and rested at AIA... I can't even move, can't even stand properly... And I have to give a call to Joanne and I broke a promise... So I rested at AIA for a while and regain back my strength... Then later that night, I drove home... Ate something and continue to sleep as I'm just too weak to do anything at all... But then thank God for healing me, eventhough it takes a long time but I still recover from my weakness...

This Year's Chinese New Year is the most boring for me, I did nothing but going to my grandma's place... Just sit there and do nothing at all too... And no friends to go with too... I'm so lifeless... And the days just went by like that... Boring... On the 3rd day of CNY which is saturday, I have to go to Ipoh to rescue my princess from boredom too... Hahaha... So Jordan and I headed to Ipoh early morning... It's a smooth drive and we reached there safely... And after that, we have to leave to Tapah to see the campsite... After 45 minites of driving, we got lost in Tapah and have to ask bro. Jason Fong for the location and at last we reached there at the campsite... When we reached there, we were quite shocked to see that there is nothing surrounded the campsite... It's just like one open air big field... And we went inside to see, the campsite is quite run down... everything is just so small... And anyone can just see you from the road... Yes, the campsite is just beside the road... In a way, we are all very disappointed at the campsite... Thought it will be one fantastic campsite but a rundown... And it's full of bugs too... Joanne got bitten by leech in 10 minutes walk around the campsite... Which I think the youth is going to suffer... Seriously to what I think, it's just not worth to pay RM160 to come all the way here to have a camp... But then, we just hope for the better one lar... After visiting the campsite, we headed back to KL... We reached KL at about 5 something p.m... Rest at Joanne's house for a while and we're out to have dinner with tommy... After dinner, we packed things and overnight at Joanne's place... We play some cards and lights off and ZzzzZzz... Tired night for me...

Tired...

2008-01-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

Very tired today... Didn't sleep well last night... And also I did alot of things last night too... I bath my two dogs (Angel and Bubu) and spikey too... Wash Spikey's cage... Sweep my room and also mop my room... At last, my room is clean again...

As I looked at spikey closely, I notice to see that HE GOT MITES ON HIS BODY!!! I'm like: "oh shit, why this have to come?" My room is clean and it's hard to have mites in here... May be he got it before he was brought back to my house... It's just too surprise to see it... So I bath the little fella... He was enjoying his bath as it's in warm water which could ease his itch... Kinda happy to see him not that grumpy... Actually wanted to bath him very very very long ago... But spikey's mother don't allow it and claim that he can only bath once or twice a year... So that's the story lar... Now hopefully he's ok lar... Going to spray Frontline on Him on Saturday... Wish the mites will be gone for good... And our fei chai will be healthy again...

I also realise one thing, is that I took initiative to do anything for anyone but I did not even give 1% of my effort to spent some time with my Lord and Saviour... And I think He is now jealous that other things have taken His place in my heart... Seriously, I'm sorry for not putting God as my priority... Always have things in my mind that keep me busy and I find it very very very unhealthy... My physical body is tired so it does also effect my spiritual body as well or the other way around... I'm just too busy listening to other people and also myself... Always listening to what people have to say, whether am I going to the right path or not... Always longing for the Physical expect, and never look into the spiritual expect... I know it from the day that I make my decision to follow Christ whole heartedly, that I need to be constant in the relationship that I had with the Lord... I should not be giving excuses for not spending time with God... But I failed Him, I failed Him badly that I think I should just walk into hell which the devil is wanting me to do so... For each new day, I'm reminded not of my sins or what I did right or wrong... But more of God's Love, Grace and Mercy for me each new day... Every morning, He greeted me when I wake up... But just that I clouded with my worries and did not see Him... You know what that is so funny? I actually complain that where are you Lord, aren't You are here for me whenever I needed You? And actually He was just beside me and I failed to listen to Him or felt for Him... Things aren't like things that it was used to be... God wants me to be more and more mature in my christian walk but I didn't push myself for it... I felt so contented with what I have or what I have to give to God's people... There are so many dark secrets in my heart that I feared to tell people, it's because the way people accepting of who you are... But these dark secrets of mine, it actually help the people of the world today... On how to look at things, on how to look at the bigger picture than just looking at what you have now... On how to handle things that is not going your way... Things that have done eventhough it should not be happening, how could we face it? how can we see it? how can we help? But sad to say is that, all we can ever do is just to judge other people and condemn them... And who we are? Why does God have to put us in this situation? Is it to rebel against the leader that He put in our midst? or to rebel against the will of God? Seriously, all I can do is to pray... That's easy to say, but do I really do it... I can tell you frankly, NO...

The interest of going to church is no more there, it's more like a routine where you go to church play guitar, yam char, chit-chatting with other people and go home without receiving anything... Where does all the interest go to? It's all fall to the head of the church to evaluate this... Where does the people gone to? why they have left? why people are not serving in the church? why are the leaders tired or dried up? what is the need of these people? what is going on with the church? There are alot more factor that needed to be looked at... I know as a pastor, it's not easy to satisfy everyone's needs... But if you want to, it's all depends on the power of the Almighty God... The pastor that I admire the most is still Pastor James, He gave His best to the church... And even Aunt Judaline serve along side with Him, it's just a simple couple ministry which have grown so much... They are a role model in serving or ministering... And darn, I missed them so much... As for their children, they might not be like pastor but I do think that they are as normal as any human beings... Fall and rise up again... And imperfect like you and me... Even king david fall alot, but the most important thing is that he rely on God's strength to rise up again... Even the most godliest man you can think on earth is as imperfect as anyone of us, cause in anyway we still sin as long we are in this earth... It's not by what we do that save us from hell, but it's by the Grace of God... All of us have to learn to accept one another in any other ways(it's God's commandment to love your neighbour as yourself)... If you still want to be who you are now, thinking that you are right in all ways and think that your way is higher than anyone's way... Then how can revival be started in you... It's all require you to rely on God and think abit more... =)

Bluess...

2008-01-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

This whole entire week is just pure boring to me... All I did was just to play games with my fellow colleagues... But of cause I still manage to check some of my college stuffs as well after the education fair on sunday(13th January 2008)... Still did not know what to do at the moment... Stuck in making my decision whether to move on with my Marketing Course(CIM) which I doubt I'll do that too... So there are other choices like Sound Engineering, Diploma in Music, Interior Design, Graphic Design and Architecture... Actually I'm still not too sure whether I should go into these or not as career opportunity is the one that I concern the most... And 1 thing struck me that if you don't put effort in doing things, how can you expect that it will succeed... Which I think it's quite true... I need to know what I'll do best... And if I start with it, I'll make sure that I'll also end with it...

And one thing now that worries me is my current job... Do I really want to make this as my career? I don't think I want... So now I'm looking for work which allows me to work part time but gain alot of income which I need... I need to finance my own education, family, music instruments, sometimes my toys, my food(most importantly) and also some saving(to get marry)... hehe... Hopefully that God will make a way for me... I'll learn to trust You even more...

Pressure!!!

2008-01-11T16:17:00.000+08:00

Day by Day, my level of pressure keep on rising... Seriously I don't know what I want to do with my life... Still cannot decide what to study... What will make my career... How I will go on with my life... I cannot just stay contented with what I have now... I want more... I want to give my family a better home to stay... I want a car so that I can travel easier rather than depending on other people... And of cause planning to get marry... I'm left with 4 years... What can I do? A part of me worrying, a part of me lazing, a part of me just do what I can... I just feel myself being so useless, so unworthy, so worthless, scrap metal, rubbish, coward and etc, etc, etc that is bad about myself... I just wouldn't take risk for my own future... I feared that I make wrong decision in my life... Which left people lecturing me... Have to think of money which I need to fort out for my own education... Not easy though... My education, my interest in music, my interest in toys... These are the main factors that is affecting my life... Pets that I needed to take care of... There goes my money... What can I do? to have a better life... Knowing that God didn't promise me for a better life... How could I stand before the needs that needed to be fulfilled? Life just isn't easy...

How I forget You...

2008-01-11T09:43:00.000+08:00

It's been a while... Often talk about You... But as time goes by, it slowly fades away from my mind... How I forget about You... Totally... I'm so so so unfaithful to my first love... The one who always help me in time of need... Always there for me whenever I needed... The one who comfort, teach, lead and guide me... Yet I still forget about You... Please forgive me for not doing what I suppose to do... Strengthen me, I'm seriously very weak now... Nothing seems to interest me, except worldly things... Which I try to stay away from... sign... O, Lord... Help me... SOS...

Toys make me broke...

2008-01-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

Being a big boy, my interest is still in toys... Many toys that have gotten my attention and now I wanna obtain it... Transformers, Gundams, Saint Seiya, Voltron, Macross(a.k.a.Robotech), Spawn, Mai Hime, Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, and many more...

Darn, I just missed my childhood...

These are the transformers toys that I really wanna buy... Really expensive... Optimus Prime and Ultra Magnus MP cost about RM700 each depending whether people are selling it or not... As for StarScream, Megatron and SkyWarp cost about RM300 each... Titanium Series and Classic Series cost about RM80-RM100 each... If I buy all, meaning I'll be spending more than 5k on transformers toys alone...

I'm broke... hahaha...

As for voltron, another one that I wanna get... Cost about RM500 or less...

2008!!!

2008-01-03T11:27:00.000+08:00

New Year Begins, life still goes on... Felt nothing special, but just older... Just turn 23 less than a month ago and now i'm already 24... Time just flies by so fast... The main concern that I have is my education... Till now, I still do not know what to study, how to build my career from there... This really worry me and also my family as my future lies unknown...

*sign* Life still goes on...

Year End...

2007-12-28T10:32:00.000+08:00

Today, last day of work for the year 2007... Very happy, very excited but also very tired, very sleepy and also mixed feeling of sad too... Didn't really accomplish anything this year... In another way it means that I didn't do anything... Although there's ups and downs in my life... Some could be very sour but thank God that most of it is sweet... Really changed my life, my attitude, my character and my thinking... Facing things all around me that is not easy, help me to be more wise, more knowledgeable and also learn to depend on God even more...

Hopefully this coming year will make me a better man that God wants me to be... =)

The day after Christmas...

2007-12-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

This year Christmas was kinda uneventful for me... Basically I fall sick and did nothing but lazing around... It's kinda make me more tired and sleepy after taking the medicine... Like my body is getting more and more weaker... Just another like another day for me... It's nothing special... Though many people always say that christmas was the day when Christ was born into this world and we should make this day memorable where gifts are given to one another... But deep inside my heart, tells me that Christmas is all in the heart... No matter when and where, Christ will always be in your heart... Remember Christ not only during Christmas but for the rest of the 364 days too...

At first, I just don't wanna think of anything nor accept anything at all... But God always have a way to let you to listen to Him, listen to His still, warm voice... Which you will never forget about Him... In my own body, I'm weak and sinful... I'm nothing if I haven't had Christ in my heart... Knowing that I will still sin no matter what may come and try to stop me but I'll still do it... Wanting to do the things that my body is longing but my heart is not... It's just not easy to be a human being... At times, I even questioned God; why do you let us come into the world and be condemned?? Some of us might try so hard to be saved, but couldn't... Some of us just live our lives as who we are in the world... Some of us just don't care who is God... How can the world be saved?? There are so many people perished in the past which is already writen in the bible... How could I be saved if I still find it hard to do what pleases God... In my heart, I keep thinking that doing my best just isn't the answer... Been wanting to serve God, but still walking in the dark... How ironic could it be?? Couldn't even imagine that I could be in heaven... All I can think of is how sinful I am, and how unworthy I am to be the Child of God... I am so ashamed of Christ which I just couldn't stand up for Him... I have become part of the world which will be perish with Mr S.A.Tan himself... I just don't know what to do anymore... Great knowledge and wisdom that God has granted which I did not use it... I don't know what to do in my life anymore... Just clueless about everything... All I can see is darkness... Wanting to break free from my bondages, but later still return to it...

O Lord, my God...
I'm so unworthy standing at Your throne...
Cover myself with shame and evil deeds...
I'm nothing but dirt collected from the ground...
Unholy and Unjust...

But... Your Love, Your Grace and Your Mercy taken my shame away...
Pour out Your blood and wash over me...
Cleanse me from deep within...
Places where I did not know...
And You still continue to lead me out of my own darkness...

O Lord, my God...
There is no way that I could repay you...

No matter how depressed I could be, how things stressed me up, how directionless I am... I still know that God is always with me... He will not leave me nor forsake me... And He will stand together with me... Even more, He will stand in my place in time of judgement... Though I still fear what will happen in the future, but I'll also learn to surrender it all to God... No point for me to just say something but didn't mean it... Then it'll be NATO(No Action, Talk Only)... I do think that God will still give us time to be tested, time to think and also time to change as well... As long we are in Him and He in us...

When I asked the question that I mention above, straight away I know it in my heart that God is in control of everything... He allow such things to happen for a reason, a reason that He yet to reveal... But all I can say is all because of our own human's desire... Greed of money, possession and power... The most important thing is that God's love, grace and mercy for us is uncountable... He will pardon us from all sin, but this doesn't mean that you can do anything you want... Just go according to God's commandment... =)

Even I could be still clueless about what I wanna do next, but I still want to believe that God will still lead and guide me through... Hopefully I can have the answer soon...

Back to work...

2007-12-18T11:18:00.000+08:00

It's a tiring week, last week...

On friday night, had to drive to Bukit Bintang for dinner and also I wanted take my guitar... It was so jammed... That Bentley is closed and I can't take my guitar... Quite frustrated though... Cause for a week++ I cannot practise my guitar... Going to be rusted... *sign*... Then meet up with Joanne's family for dinner... Was quite ok... Nothing much actually... Then we went to pavilion to take a walk... And go home straight after that... Didn't sleep early that night... Was building a small box/house for spikey... So that he can hide in there... After I put it in... He seems more happy with it... Which I'm glad... Then went to ZZzzzzZz... That was about 2 a.m. 15th December...

About 4 hours later, I had to wake up... Brush my teeth, bath, packing some clothes and there I'm off to Joanne's house... And we are going to Ipoh...

The journey to Ipoh was a hell ride... Driven by a *GIRL*... Fast and unstable... cornering without smooth turning which make all of us fall unto 1 side or the other... And tailing the car infront like going lick the car's ass... Seriously reckless and inconsiderate...

In Ipoh, there is nothing to do... So went to jusco with Joanne... At least could relax myself abit... Then we have to go home and get ready for dinner... We have to be back by 5 p.m. and wait for the other relatives to be back to prepare themselves... So that we can all go for dinner... And... We waited until 8p.m. for all of us to get out of the house and head for our dinner place... Seriously I'm bored to death... (Sorry Joanne, but it's the truth which you already know that)

At the dinner place, was ok... Like normal family dinner... Noisy... hahaha... Everything is fine with me, just need to be kuli for some time... which I can't complain much...

After dinner, Joanne's family and I headed back to KL... It was fine at first, when it's a *GUY* who is driving the car... Felt safe for an hour and more... Then we stop a while for toilet break... Been drinking too much of water during the dinner... Later, when we got back into the car... The *GIRL* is going to drive again... So... another 45 minutes of hell ride again... argghhhh...

About 12:30a.m. we reached KL, soon after that we reached Joanne's place... After getting down... Joanne manage to wish me happy birthday... Then I headed back home... The most surprising thing is that when I'm driving back home, I got a sms... And it's from Kuci... hahaha... My first friend to wish me happy birthday than the rest of my very very close friends... Anyway, I always treat this little bro as dearly as I could... All I can do for him is to be that someone to watch over him for a while more... At least still can talk to him in a lot of ways... *Back to topic* So after I reached home... I clean my self, pet on my two dogs and headed to my room to check spikey as well... Feed the little fella with cricket again... hahaha... Joanne is going to kill me soon... Then I headed to my bed... Been so tired...

I woke up at 10a.m. and sad to say, I missed church service... hahaha... I slept until I cannot wake up and my body is too weak as well... But still, I need to go to church for carolling practise with my bro and paul... Went to pick Joanne up and straight to church... Then went to jusco for lunch... At last can eat nando's chicken... hehehe... Then went to get my guitar(This time manage to get it)... Went to pudu to get some fish for my aunt and go back home to get some rest and also some entertainment from spikey... Had dinner with my family (Aunties, Uncles and Cousins)... A place where they are also having a wedding dinner... It's kinda weird as we walk in... It's also a very bad day for me too during my birthday... I had to go to toilet twice to boom kawasaki... After dinner, we all went home and bring spikey to Joanne's place for her sister to see... It was kinda a hell night... Just brought spikey in and Joanne's mom started to shout like nobody's business... It's normal but it's kinda annoying listen the same thing again and again... I always wonder that whether do she has any other things to say beside these?? In a way, I kinda felt that she always look down on me... I'm just a kid who is trying to survive by my own while also supporting Joanne bit by bit... I hope that I'm doing my best... Then I drove off quite pissed off... *sign* Seriously, very sorry to Joanne...

After my birthday 17th December, Joanne didn't manage to celebrate for me during the exact day... So we celebrate a day after... This day, she brought me out... It's kinda surprising though, even I somehow guessed what she is going to do... So we went to Ernest house and Joanne find out that they have moved out(I knew that quite sometimes already)... So we called them and they brought us to their own house... Then when zachery and azelea are getting ready... I asked Joanne where are we going? Then the two little fella shouted: "We are going to the ZOO"... In my mind... I was like *Shocked* but for a while... It's was a fun and enjoying trip though it was very very very tiring... When we first step into the zoo, the two little fella was like "I want to see this, I want to see that"... Joanne and I now start our parentinghood for the day... We manage to take care of them... Carrying the two fella is no easy task... Now I understand how ernest feel... hahaha... Which I salute him for taking care of the both of them... We walked around the whole zoo, sat on the too-too train(taught by zachery and azelea) and eat at marry brown... It was fun going out with them... But in a way, it's not as easy as you think... After sending them back, we went to Joanne's place to eat dinner... Then I went back home with spikey, and brought my mom and sis for dinner as well... Then at last I manage to practise my guitar... And ZZzzzzZZZ...

Thank God that I'm still alive... haha...

End of this week working life...

2007-12-14T17:21:00.000+08:00

It's about 5:30pm now... Didn't do anything useful today... Thought will have something to do... But in the end, there are still too many things that needed to be finalised... *sign*... Just another bored day...

Anyway going for dinner later with Joanne's family, and also getting my guitar back... Since they didn't do anything with it, might as well bring it back...

Tomorrow going to ipoh with Joanne's family too, going to be dead soon with Joanne's bro/sis driving... Hopefully it will not be that bad lar...

Now seems really lifeless now...

Fun at last!!!

2007-12-13T10:38:00.000+08:00

Last night was a fun night... At last, Joanne and I manage to bath our little fella... We also named it spikey... It's fun though, and also in the same way it's also very scary of not knowing what will happen next... We still don't dare to catch it with our bare hands, as sometimes it's still curl and spike up...

Bathing it was the fun part, as spikey is very grumpy, clumsy and cute at the same time... I still cannot get the vision out of my head... hahaha... It's just too funny to forget about it... After bathing it, we got a dry cloth and try to dry him... So we also use the cloth to catch hold on him too... At first, he was abit grumpy and don't like to be hold... But after a while, he began to relax and just stay where he is... And at times, he still curl and spike up... Still I have to say that we are making a great progress...

The above are a few pictures that I would like to share with you...

Thank God for making Joanne and my wish come true... Hopefully spikey will be more familiar with us soon...

Weird things happening these days!!!

2007-12-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

Why is it so jammed, this week?? Everything is so slow... WHY??? I'm getting more and more bored these days... Before work, jam jam jam... After work also jam jam jam... Can I have some peace and quite journey??? Now I'm so sleepy... yawn...

Yesterday, manage to buy a toyogo container to make my hegde hog a new home... Still haven't name it yet, but I think spikey will suit him... This little fella is not as agressive as we normally see... So I think there is a good sign... I did train him where to look for food and smart enough, he can look for it himself... As for toilet train, it still needs alot of time... Once he did his business on the prepare toilet bowl, but later he start to do his business everywhere... hahaha... So need to be more patience... Till now, still don't dare to go to near it... Though he will curled in some way, but he's still quite daring to sniff around... I think he is getting used to the new environment... But now, the only thing that I'm afraid is that he got mite in his body... He scratches alot sometimes... So I'm going to find out soon... Hopefully everything will be alright for Joanne and I...

I missed my guitar as I took it to repair on saturday in bentley, but they have yet to call me now... I think I'm going to call them soon... sob sob T.T

New Week begin...

2007-12-11T09:47:00.000+08:00

Throughout this whole week, I have learned alot of things... Both from my own mistake and also from God... I even wrote a song dedicated just for God, remembering what he has gone through for me... Eventhough I always has this temper problem, but I think it's has been lessen throughout the days as I always seek God... This is the song lyrics that I have wrote...

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Lord of all creation
Maker of the earth and sky
We're gathered in Your Name and worship You alone

You are God
You are the light of the world
Shine Your way
Through all darkest hour
Give me Hope
When there's nobody care
Be my strength
So that I can stand
For all You've done for me
To give me life

Shed Your blood that is on the cross
Suffering that can't be beared
Not for all the sake Your glory
But Your love for us

You are God
You are the light of the world
Shine Your way
Through all darkest hour
Give me Hope
When there's nobody care
Be my strength
So that I can stand
You are God
You are the light of the world
Shine Your way
Through all darkest hour
Give me Hope
When there's nobody care
Be my strength
So that I can stand
For all You've done for me
To give me life

You thought of me
You cried for me
You shed Your blood and died for me
There's no one could love me like you do
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That's all for now... Still stuck with second bridge... Hope God will give me inspiration to write song for God again... Thank God for talents and gifts for me... I will appreciate it much more...

I got my hegde hog already... Now it's at home... Wanted to call it spikey... But it's kinda common... So have been thinking names these few days too... It's one handsome fella... But now it's kinda aggressive... So I have to be patient with it lar... hehe... Good day... God bless... =)

What a day again!!!

2007-12-07T09:07:00.000+08:00

I seriously second my previous post... Malaysian drivers are just a bunch of assholes... They are at fault and they dare to scold other people for their own mistake... This happen to be a tambi singh (sorry if i offense any race or religion) driving a white kancil, car plate:CAY 753... It's a 2 line road going down to this stupid same roundabout (again!!! this roundabout is curse: Bulatan Pahang if you guys know)... This tambi is from the right lane, cut into my lane which is the left lane... I honked him, he looked at me as though I honked him wrongly and start to scold me... Seriously, all thanks to JPJ for allowing such assholes to drive on the road...

In this two days, I use the word "asshole" almost on everything... haha... In a way, I think I better calm and relax myself... If not the world is going to explode soon... Other than that, my day is great... God given love, grace and mercy for me each day... If not, the tambi singh will become smoked babi... hahaha...

Always remember God and focus on Him alone... When you focus on God, your giant fall... If you focus on the giant, you'll stumble... This is what I've learn, and it's true if you reflect back...

Good day... =)

Fire burning inside of me...

2007-12-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

I'm so damn angry today, and it's my bad day for meeting 2 assholes at one time... And they are called malaysian drivers... And I never be proud to be a malaysian... If given a good opportunity, I'll rather fly away from this pathetic piece of shit land... What happen? This is what happen... In a roundabout, I'm trying to get into the roundabout and so happen that this mercedes benz asshole indicate that he want to go right... So I think since he is moving right, it's safe for me to go out right? common sense, right? And out of the freaking sudden, he turn to the left without signalling... So I have to brake, and the other freaking asshole driving a proton waja come from behind of me start honking, bitching, whining, and what so ever like he's a man having period... Worst of all, he show me the golden finger which he use to shove into his own asshole to get his gayness satisfied... And the mercedes benz asshole just looked at me as though I'm in fault...

Seriously, I hate to admit myself as a malaysian with so many wonderful assholes and bitches wandering around like gigolos and whores... Now I'm satisfied letting it all out from me and holding nothing in me... Just that if I saw anyone do that again... I'll just remember their car number plate and I'll do a wonderful signature on it... And thank God for His love, Mercy and Grace... If not, I'll chase those assholes and knock them down... And also thank God that He didn't give me a big car or jeep, if not there goes their cars... hahahaha... If you assholes read this, remember that it's not me being coward but it's the grace of God save you assholes from a great misery...

I learned my lesson, being a patient man... Although I did let go some anger in me... But I still manage to hold myself back from more disguiting scene... Thank God for it... Even it's not a wonderful day, but I still thank God for it... =)

Slow Moving...

2007-12-05T15:04:00.000+08:00

What a day... Been so boring... Lazy to work... but browsing around for more sugar glider and hedge hog information... Yupz, going to get a hedge hog soon... Getting it with Joanne... Since she like it so much, she's gonna take care of it... hahaha... Told ya, I'm bad... Actually I'm very excited to get it as soon as possible, it's one adorable pet though it's kinda dangerous when it got spikes... hahaha...

I also would like to show you more of my pet's pictures...
click here

I'm just so boring yet I'm overjoyed... Thank God for smooth going day as well... hehe...

My Guitar...

2007-12-04T16:45:00.001+08:00

Ibanez RG2570EX SL

My first electric guitar, and I enjoyed playing it...

More Pictures, click here.

Another Day...

2007-12-04T09:53:00.000+08:00

Once again, I think upon His awesome power surrounded me everyday that make this day so great... Eventhough there are some retarted, stupid, idiotic malaysian driver all over KL road today... Really want to thank God for giving me so much patient, love and mercy to me, not to take revenge but to take another slap again and again and again... Even in my heart, I wanted revenge but God is always in control and say "no" to me... It's kinda dissapointed though, but God wanted me to be more like him and not of myself which are filled with evil desiressssss... Haha... I'm evil... With 2 horns on my head and 1 tail on my backside... At least I'm in God's grace and He awarded me with a halo... Haha...

God gave a the best example which can be found in the bible, it's about david. How he rise up as a leader, a man after God's own heart, but still fall flat on his face in many ways. Though we are imprefect, unholy, unlovable, unforgivable (is there such words?), but God still love us. He will stand beside us until we finally meet Him face to face (in heaven). As long we go back to Him for His grace and mercy.

Amen.

Joanne and I

2007-12-03T09:31:00.000+08:00

This is me with my lovely girlfriend *Joanne*... We've been knowing each other for almost 5 years... Wonderful memories we both had together...

My First Time... Blogging...

2007-12-03T09:16:00.000+08:00

This New Day, freshly created by my great and almighty God. It's wonderful to put God first in the beginning of my day, I have never felt better without God's unfailing love and His marvelous grace for me: without fail (EVERYDAY). Eventhough Worries come into my mind, but still want to thank God for helping me through. Living in His light, His protection, His guidance upon my life. Never felt so secure before. And even I have done something very very very wrong, He's still there to embrace me and never leave me nor forsake me. See, how much He means to me. =)